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Charlotte Bronte – Jane Eyre… Rochester to Jane… “I can see in you the glance of a curious sort of bird, from the close set bars of a cage; a vivid, restless captive; when I put free, it would soar cloud high.”

“I tried to fit into many groups along the road… but I never could for long… because they stop… and I have to keep going forward.”… H.H.X.

My name is Harriot Harlow Ximena – Author of my own Journey / Soul PathFinding Facilitator of Healing Luna – Inner Circle of Soul PathFinding.

I identify as an Empathic Intuitive Shamanic Witch and an obsessive Soul PathFinder.

*Note… “Witch” means… “Self-Healer” (not evil as we’ve been conveniently [blindly] led to believe – that thwart’s our authentic potential for our Universal right to be the gifted CO-CREATING BEINGS we incarnated to be.

I feel I have travelled the “Persephone” Path and personify the “Persephone” Archetype. Experiencing the metaphorical “abduction” through crisis / trauma. Descending into my own underworld with no choice, but to get to know it, to navigate it and reclaim and heal lost parts of my own psyche. It has been a duality of life – oscillating between “Spring” time on the surface of life and long journeys travelling through my own underworld to eventually finding balance in both worlds.

I’ve manged to heal a great portion of my ‘Great Wound’ and found my True Self in the process – this ‘Work‘ being the result, and now I wish to share my story of how I did it with others who wish to find theirs and share my ‘method’ of Self-Healing / Self-Awakening which is offered in the Free Membership section – “Luna’s Web”.

We heal ourselves first and foremost, because as the story goes – can’t guide anyone else unless you’ve done it yourself right. If I wanted to heal being an alcoholic, I would go to a healed alcoholic, wouldn’t you? Someone’s who’s actually lived it, not theorised about it.

I’ve been on this Path since 1995, the year I woke up! 30 years of age – Saturn Return.

The Day I decided to face no one but me!

Who am I? I asked with great sobbing tears. WHO THE HELL AM I?

I couldn’t answer that question in 1995, and nor for a long time to come.

I had not only lost my identity… I HAD LOST CONNECTION TO MY HEART – THE LOVE OF SELF – to my very own SOUL CONSCIOUSNESS! Who ironically, was there the whole time… just waiting for me to realise and re-establish connection.

I didn’t know at the time.. but I had just stepped on to the Path of RECLAIMING HER!!!!

My whole fractured, fragmented, stolen, lost, CONSCIOUSNESS – WAS EVERYWHERE – like – a – unboxed jigsaw thrown over the table with many pieces strewn over the floor and everyone stamping on them, and trying to cover them up, throw them in the bin so I would forget them – pieces of ME! GOLDEN PIECES… of no one but ME! Everywhere – UNKNOWN PIECES – this is all of us! Incredible to realise.

I had just commenced the Great Work… of putting them all back together again – One United – connected piece – UNITED – all woven – back together again with great blood, sweat and yes, many tears – but – healing tears remember!!!

That did what?

I SAT BACK IN SHOCK AND CRIED AGAIN… not in sorrow… but in the GREATEST JOY AND LOVE I’VE EVER FELT…

I SAW THE STORY – THE PICTURE – OF NOT ONLY ME… BUT ALL OF US… THE WHOLE OF HUMANITY… WE ARE ONE UNITED “MOVING PICTURE”… “CONSCIOUSNESS IN EVOLUTION”

It’s taken 30 years, a whole Saturn Cycle to get here of enormous hard work on no one but myself. Day in, day out – I have ploughed relentlessly though my Unconscious Vault and sorted, purged, cleansed, revamped, stomped on, screwed up, thrown out, screamed, cried my eyes out – but – I RECLAIMED – I HEALED – I LOVED…. NO ONE BUT ME – because there was no one else in my life who was gonna do it… but me! I got responsible… for me. Did it for me.

Now… my Soul is saying… “Show them!!! Show them what you did! Tell your story! They need to know” That there is a Path… there is Order, there is Structure to the psyche… those shattered, fractured, disgruntled, conditioned and lied to; disorganised, lost and just plain messed up pieces of your jigsaw – YOUR STORY of WHO you AUTHENTICALLY are – ALL RECOVERABLE, HEALABLE AND LOVEABLE! You just gotta be ready, ready… to fight – for no one but YOU!!!

Are you ready for that? Only YOU know! Don’t go by anyone else.. are YOU ready to KNOW WHO THE HELL YOU REALLY ARE… and yes… FIGHT.. for those lost, damaged, messed up and HIDING pieces of Self (psyche). Some are so afraid to show themselves in waking daylight because they’ve been that persecuted in past lives (Burning Times come to mind!!! Mm) – What does that say!!!

I was ready. Damn right I was. I was sick to death of NOT KNOWING who the hell I was! I was sick to death of being there for everyone… but me. Carrying my bloody big fat Great Wound around with me, weighing me down every life, no; no more I said.. it was time for me to heal it and hear the golden voice of my True Self, Higher Self, Soul Consciousness… the greatest love one could ever imagine.

Battered and bruised (emotionally, mentally)… I took off – I jumped off the cliff of A FALSE IDENTITY – one that was TOLD I HAD TO BE… a patterning – that when you’re ready – feels extremely fake, false and hollow. No… no more… lies… when you’re at rock bottom… you’ve got nothin to lose.. and that was me. Material possessions mean nothin when you don’t know WHO you are to appreciate the life around you.

It’s the NO AUTHENTICITY of SELF that KILLS US! Destroys us.

It’s like walking around being “people pleasing plastic” but knowing… there’s more to all of this charade deep below because you “feel it” and this hidden feeling sensation is the golden key – it has PURPOSE and MEANING… CONNECTION to a whole of Consciousness that we merely dream about – that through its channel – there IS great love waiting for us on the other side – and flows naturally through this “feeling channel” with the greatest love and security we’re all yearning for deep within. We know it’s missing… it’s just that we don’t know how to retrieve it. Unfortunately the school curriculum doesn’t cover that… funny that.

I left my whole life at that date… left a narcissistic abusive relationship after 10 years of hell, took my 4 y.o. son… and stepped on to a whole new path that has blown my mind every day since it started.

It’s not a bed of roses on the road to a united psyche – please don’t fantasize that, it’s DAMN HARD WORK on no one but yourself. But it’s YOUR WORK… and there’s nothin like it – and moreso NO ONE CAN TAKE IT FROM YOU – because IT’S THE ONLY ASPECT OF SELF THAT YOU CAN TAKE WITH YOU WHEN YOU DIE from this life to the next one. Because IT’S AUTHENTIC YOU!

It will test you like no tomorrow – because you’re worth it. The harder the tests, the more you know YOUR SOUL LOVES YOU DEARLY because She wants you to evolve and come back home to a united Self. Ironically, the pain is only the rejection, the disowning, the peeling and scraping off the dis-eased band-aid covering a very infected poisonous wound… and that’s your Higher Soul Self (our Great Mother) – pushing the infection (repressed emotional states of consciousness unhealed) up and out into the daylight so you can see them in waking consciousness – to release the poison of great lies, that has stifled and twisted our true authentic Self to walk naturally in a pure creative life. This is all happening personally and collectively. The Earth is vomiting up the hidden poison and so are we personally. It’s all natural. What does your body do when it gets sick? It fights to kill the poison right! That’s what’s happening re a “Great Wound” that society has formed due to not facing the feeling side of itself. It’s like a giant blocked drain, and the sewers are polluted. Mother Nature, the Divine Feminine pushes out impurities, reveals the poison, always, eventually… to naturally heal. We can’t control the collective, but we can control our own minds, if we choose to do so.

If you do “work” this life on yourself… YOU take that WITH YOU – the only thing you can take with you – the only thing you can ultimately rely on. YOU WAKE UP A “DIFFERENT” PERSON in the next life… YOU’RE ADDING ON EACH LIFE – Evolution of Consciousness – not a stagnating one… that has to come back and repeat and repeat… the repetition is where the pain lies deeply… where evolution pain is momentarily.

Sitting in the backroom of my Mum’s house, my brothers old bedroom – with only a bed and a desk, few clothes… and I sat there and sobbed like I thought my heart was going to literally fall out of my chest… and I somehow managed to write on a scrap of paper…

I WROTE TO MY FUTURE SELF… sobbing…

“Promise me you’ll know who you are, and be someone for yourself”… and I wrote to my future Self for 2011 to read.

I put that date. How did I know that date?
Ego didn’t know… but “She/Soul” did

That was the actual year I RE-UNITED WITH MY SOUL CONSCIOUSNESS!!
16 years it took to RE-UNITE with HER Voice!
And that was my GREATEST GOAL… TO HEAR HER VOICE REUNITED WITHIN – Jubilation exonerated I can’t say enough!

And that was just the beginning… of the NEXT Journey!

Yes… there’s more.

I’m an obsessive advocate for the Empathic/Shamanic Self-Psychoanalysis process – Self-Healing / Self-Awakening and reclamation of the Witch Archetype embracing healing the “Witch Wound”.

I created the term “Soul PathFinding (TM)”… after many years of Self-Healing / Self-Awakening – it is “A Shamanic Journey into the Unconscious” and breaking through to higher dimensions… to heal one’s Great Wound… so one can hear Higher Self/Soul Consciousness to be guided authentically.

What I can see in the external world today… is.. people aren’t getting the “foundations” right.. they’re going straight to the top of the mountain via intellect – and intellect can’t hold those heights for long with rotten stumps. There’s nothing to be rushed here.

One step-at-a-time to “digest” properly and integrate solidly so when you reach those heights, higher states of consciousness – YOU HOLD STRONGLY… and KNOWINGLY – that’s what I guide you here at Healing Luna – Inner Circle of Soul PathFinding. I’m passing on how I received it… over 30 years – you can’t rush this or somewhere down the line… your psyche may crack… but with SOLID PILLARS of utmost INNER FOUNDATIONS… you will hold, you WILL hold. I am living proof of it. You take the quick fix – you’ll pay for it later believe me… you don’t want that.. or you wouldn’t be here reading this now.

One sign you’re in good stead for commencing this kind of work is when you can “read” for this length of time and reflect on it deeply. Society now… that’s their biggest struggle – it wants everything fast, super-fast… wrong way for this type of work… go back to steady solid basics… as you’ll really pay for it later.

We are SERIOUS trekkers of the psyche here in this group, we take it one-step-at-a-time… slow steady progress reaps extraordinary rewards. Trust me – I struggled too with that – Mercury in Aries – hello!!! Fast racing car mind here… had to be slowed down – painfully so – whacked over the head numerous times lol – But I took it on the chin… and I listened!!! I learned!!!.. and I’m still here.

The “Work” actually for me is… uncovering, unveiling – the Path of the Soul and uniting with it – becoming one with it on all levels of consciousness and thus actualising it upon the 3rd dimensional plane of Earth to share, guide ‘through’ one’s own journey upon this Great Path of Shamanic Self-Healing / Self-Awakening.

I’ve studied Intuitive Positive Counseling, All 4 levels of Astrology – “Traditional, Psychological, Humanistic & Evolutionary”, the Hermetic Mystical Qabalah and created my own unique Qabalah theory and experienced great lessons re the trials & tribulations of “Life” for over 30 years, always pushing my own inner boundaries to “Know Thyself.

This is a Path of a Great Quest in Search of True Self.

Its raw, unedited, not grammatically correct and deadly honest. Its not polished, its raw unearthed FEELING Self talking. I don’t want perfected intellect – I’m a passionate writer from what I “feel” – there is a difference.

I didn’t join anything… I was called back Home… to True Self – not to join – but to “Re-unite”.

I’ve written my whole journey – my own – Autobiography – and turned it into a Self-Study “Method” through my membership ‘Contacted’ Society… “Luna’s Web”.

The journey is more than just having your Astrological chart read. It’s about “doing it yourself!” No one can do the “Work” for you… only you can. I am a very strong advocate for “Do-It-Yourself” Healing here at Healing Luna – Inner Circle of Soul PathFinding… because that’s the Path I have travelled for over 30 years. I was sick to death of carrying my heavy wounds around with me and when I would seek so-called professionals out – I observed in disbelief that they really didn’t know much more than I did. I was shocked by this… and it was a major cross-road in my life (Saturn Return) – 30 years of age – and I knew deep down – that I had to figure this out by myself, for myself. Something was very wrong in society – I felt it! I just knew. I also knew that I had to look in peculiar places to uncover what I needed for my great journey ahead.

Here at Healing Luna – Inner Circle of Soul PathFinding – I don’t hold your hand, I guide it via my own story upon this Great Healing/Awakening Path. I kindly get you on the right “evolutionary starting point” – the first two sessions with you – and then – ITS UP TO YOU – do you really want to KNOW “WHO” you really are? If you do – well you have to do the “Work” on no one but yourself dear Empathic sensitive Souls. You need to find the courage to face, no one – but yourself; the courage and strength will come, when it’s time.

I will absolutely offer you all the guidance I can from my own journey – but its guidance only. You take what resonates for you – and you commence to write your own… “BOOK ABOUT HIDDEN SELF!” This is the greatest gift I can offer you – the principles of the “Path” are the same – BUT WE ALL HAVE DIFFERENT SCENERY – “STORIES”… you have to dig up – uncover – unveil – YOUR OWN STORY… and HEAL YOURSELF – and then the Great Awakening of TRUE SELF WILL SHINE THROUGH.

We can only master ourselves, but we can LEAD by our OWN STORIES, our OWN experiences of living the Path.. the ‘Great Quest in Search of True Self”.

Join us, you’re so welcome with true love, if you’re ready. Only you know.

If you become a Member and start the Self-Study Method… you are free to work at your own pace, and stop whenever you “feel” it’s right for you. We never judge anyone, we love with open arms and in great reverence for each authentic individual.

One of our goals is trying to create tangible solutions to intangible puzzles of the psyche.

Learning ‘how’ to study the Unconscious.

Your Soul doesn’t initially speak in bright lit rooms… usually dark ones!

“It’s better to create than to be learned, creativity is the true essence of life”… Barthold Georg Nie Bahr

“The real world is your inner world… and the outside world, the expression of it. If you can manage to retrieve, hold, and release that inner ‘gold’ of yours in a unified equipoise… that is the “Great Quest” of being human.”… H.H.X.

By living on a moment-to-moment basis, you will understand that the present IS your only exit from the past, and your only gateway to the future.

This is such a complicated Path… and I came to the realisation a while back… I can only explain what I have experienced through my ‘Story’ of living it day in, day out. There is no one all enlightening sentence that is the key to the Universe – it’s a STORY of living it every day… the ‘Self-Healing / Self-Awakening’… the solitary ‘Self-psychoanalysis’ process. Because one has to touch, merge with one’s own ‘feeling self’. Story breaks through our over-dominating Ego/intellect alliance as we hold and observe our emotional self in a singularity of unique observation.

It all has to be felt to be understood, not intellectualised. You can’t “intellectually” learn this… you have to WALK THE PATH via Feeling it – merging into the shadow Self – and the ‘darkness’ it occupies within you. It has a voice… and its your voice – it is part of you – we’ve just been conditioned/trained to repress it and worse – fear it. When its really “crying” out for your attention to stop and listen to it – it has GREAT knowledge to share with you – all about YOU! Befriend it! Its not easy, I know… but the rewards are extraordinary to say the least. This is one of the main reasons I wish to share my story – to show you – it IS possible to reclaim – your – TRUE SELF… and unite all lost – fragmented parts of psyche – back into the Whole – you were born to be.

Through my story… I will show you how to reclaim the lost parts and heal them and it won’t feel so scary. But you have to do it… I can’t do it for you – but I can ‘lantern light’ the way through the dark forest… I feel my Work… has forged a path through… and the more who trek it will eventually widen it for others coming up behind us.

Healing Luna – Inner Circle of Soul PathFinding is a contacted Society… not a study-group.

There is a difference.

There comes a time

A right time to shine

When your Spirit soars

When the higher planes call

They know the time, they know your life

They wait for the signs in the dark of night

They shine a light on a previous path

It’s time to continue, Time to cast

Transmutation is the Raven, spread your wings

Call the Elementals, call the powers within